Last week was a journey of discovery for me, in so many new ways.
I eat more new flavours in a week, than I have ever done in the last 27 years, I got faster on the bike than ever before AND I learn about what Jersey makes your work the hardest, More on that later:
27 Years of Hurt:
It took me approx 10 years to get to just under 40 stone, it then took me a little over 2 years to fix it, so when I think about my eating disorder I then realise that its gonna be a long hard road and one that I need to remember I can fix over night. I was 3 when I didn’t have this disorder, that means I have 27 years of learnt behaviour to “Fix”
The other “Light Bulb” moment I had was “I was 3 the last time I eat normally” but what’s normal for a 3 year old, I have not had chance in my life to learn about food, cooking, smells, textures, and everything else around food.
So I am going to have to start slowly and treat it like weaning a baby off milk.
This week has been good for flavours but its nowhere near good enough, but its week one, of undoing 27 years, i’ll get there.
People have commented “You need to know what caused this and deal with that”….I know what caused it, I blamed that incident for my eating and my weight, but it was 27 years ago, It might have caused it, but I am the one in control now , the fact its still an issue is down to ME and no-one else !!!!!
It’s All About The Jersey:
I have never put as much effort in on the bike than when I wore this, my average Heart rate was 96% and my max was 107% (over 12 miles)
I defended the jersey at every turn, I dropped another roadie up a hill and was never ever in danger of being dropped by anyone else, this is the Jersey that you will work the hardest in, you WILL “Ride yourself into the ground”.
In short, I felt NO PAIN
Who turns up to a Hospital for an X-ray on their back and hip dressed like this ?
Well….Ermmmm…Me :D…This jersey gives you the strength to do things you never thought you could, coming home from the hospital I decided to come though Stayley-Vegas and climb into Hyde, via a half mile 12% climb, on my Steel Single speed…….Never ever did I think I’d do it, but I got more strength with every pedal turn.
This was the jersey where I broke my PB and hit 21.2 Mph over a “Flat mile” that had a kicker of an incline in it, I didn’t feel compelled to “Rind myself into the ground” like the Discovery and Livestrong ones made me, but when I came to the “Kick” of the sprint of the lead out, there was no other jersey I would have wanted to be in.
There is an interview with me in April’s Cycling active, here is a sneek peak of a picture taken for the article, I hope you all enjoy the read.