Selective Eating Disorder – I Got You’re Number !

29 10 2012

As some of you know, I have suffered with selective eating disorder (or as it was called in the old days, I am a fussy eater) for all of my adult life.

Since I was around 3 years old, All I have eaten , has been Crisp, sweets and chocolate, easy to get to 40 stone eating just that little lot, but REALLY hard losing it, eating high calorific and fat foods that offer virtually no nutritional value at all, the weight loss results with such an eating disorder are remarkable , being able to ride so far and so fast , pretty much astounds all that are in the know.

My eating disorder was always the “Last Chapter” the thing I knew would take me the longest, I know what foods my kids need to eat for a healthy balanced diet and I know now, how to cook and prepare such meals.

But until recently, I hadnt really had an angle on my own actual eating, people like Clive, picked up on this due to a total lack of food talk here, so, 18 months ago I came out and admitted my issues here.

This weekend, I finally feel, that in the main, Im so over it :0), allow me to explane.

In the past, I was always scare to try new foods, scared of the taste, the texture , the touch, the fact that it was hot food and not cold crisps

See, the thing is, you need a HUGE amount of support around you to beat ANY eating disorder, and until recent events conspired, I simply didnt have that, however, now I do, within the space of a little more than 2 weeks, I have eaten Fruit and Veg, such as Bananas, Cuecumbers, Carrots , Beetroot , apples and oranges.

Then I moved on, I move onto Pizza, Cheese at first, it was ok, but wasnt my bag, simply put, not spicy enough BUT I had taken the first step, I was eating, in public, something hot and thats something I have not done since I was 3 years old.

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Then the big guns came out to play, Extra Spicy Pizza , I was bowled over by the flavors  the taste , the warmth and the ENJOYMENT.

That wasn’t really good enough though. I was pushing for much more,I was feeling over the eating disorder BUT I decided that I wanted to eat crisps again, NOT because I wanted to go back to my old ways, but because I wanted to end the daemons that’s held me for so long.

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To break the cycle, I started with another new food, spicy hot wings, (I think im in love TBH) they are 165 calories for 2, then the next meal was my old buddy, spicy madras warburtons pita chips 700 calories per bag.

The thing is, the game had totally changed now, for the crisps were cold and un welcoming and not anywhere near as filling as something that has a HUGE amount of calories LESS. but the flavor too wasn’t as rich and eating something cold , just wasn’t nice anymore.

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I now, no longer WANT crisp’s, where as when I have attempted this before (half arsed I admit) I was always trying things and then going back to crisps, but NEVER again. Im going to make this stick, like the weight loss, I have even found another passion, COOKING, Its like a giant orchestra and I am the conductor , I love it.

On the cycling front, I have not looked at, never mind touched a bike for 20 days now, and to prove that weight loss is much more than just working out, check this picture.

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Lot’s of people have said to me, that if I didn’t cycle, I’d PILE the weight back on, it’s so not true though, however, this lack of cycling isn’t going to carry on much longer, its more circumstance than choice if I am honest ….and that brings me onto my final point.

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8 responses

31 10 2012
Monster

Keep up the good fight bro’ You have inspired me (through you’re efforts) to get a turbo trainer, hybrid bike and start slugging it our in my own “hurt locker” of a garage.. I’m 30 stone (was 33) and I shall continue to strive for my goal of riding with my son from London to Paris if nor 2013 then 2014.
Regards,
Big Davie up in Dundee.

31 10 2012
39stonecyclist

Awesome to hear, keep us updated

31 10 2012
Monster

I’m following the Scottish Slimmers eating plan, everything weighed and measured, it is basically low fat, lowish carb and high fibre diet. It does allow you to have a little beer or other alcohol if you like come the weekend.. its working for me!
I too was offered the option of surgery…. That was a real jolt and brought me down to earth with if you excuse the pun “A bit of a bump” This week however I’m “laid up” after having torn the ligaments in my right foot at work on monday…. so to be honest no turbo trainer this week. :O(
Right back on as soon as i can tho” !
I purchased an Elite turbo trainer and tyre from wiggle, a big assed saddle from Halfords and A Carrera crossfire hybrid (bought secondhand for £50!) My son bought me a team sky trainer block and water bottle. Mrs Monster bought me a catseye computer. Oh yes, I just bought a pair of mtb spd shoes and pedals on fleaBay, so that should hopefully improve my power transfer through the pedals.
I manage about 30 mins on the rig at a time and honestly its just plodding along.
When I started some eight weeks ago I could not even manage six minutes. I shall increase the cadence when I can get to an hour without collapsing of the infernal machine!
I’m still to embarrassed to go out in public but as I shed more weight This should hopefully diminish.
I shall, as you say keep you updated on progress.
Best of luck Gary,
Cheers
Davie

1 11 2012
39stonecyclist

Great story to hear, if you start to cycle in the winter as opposed to summer, you’ll have no worries :0)

31 10 2012
Monster

Sorry for being a bit of a “Stalker” but I forgot to ask in my rather long diatribe! Can you point me in the direction of a cycle jersey/ shorts supplier that caters for chaps of my stature. 6′ 3″ and 5XL ? everything I try to look at online is for people like yourself who have reached a more average size. Thanks in advance!
Davie

1 11 2012
39stonecyclist

Hi mate

I had to use aerotech in America until I got to xxl tbh

Gaz

1 11 2012
Monster

Cheers Gaz, I clocked their stuff on the web. It doesn’t seem too expensive, as long as H.M. Customs and excise fascist don’t do me over!
Cheers
Davie

1 11 2012
39stonecyclist

Order one at a time and you’ll be fine

Hey it rhymes

:0)

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