I wanted to cover over a few details, about SED, I have posted before, but as I am now winning this, my final battle, I wanted to cover off somethings again.
“Also known as perseverative feeding disorder, or picky/fussy eating, Selective Eating Disorder is expressed in an aversion to certain foods, leaving a narrow range of foods deemed acceptable (usually 10 foods or less), and an extreme refusal to try new foods”
For me, it was MUCH worse, for all I has eaten was crisps, haribo type sweets and chocolate…. THAT was it, no wonder I was 40 stone you say ? I agree , but, how did I lose what I lost eating that ?
Truth be told, it wasn’t that difficult , I just ensured I took in less calories than I used.
But , there is a flip side, I didn’t really have a social life, sure my kids got to go to pizza hut etc, but it was always awkward , sitting there, not eating, Xmas dinner was always a NIGHTMARE !
So, my diet had to be fixed, for a better social life and for a better future, for me and my kids, for my diet wasn’t conducive to a long life if the truth be told.
……It was never about the food, if I was to get fixed, but it was about the “issues” in my life, for all eating disorders are in the mind and nowhere else.
See, when trying a new food, almost made you breakdown, when most people wouldnt even think twice about, was a huge thing to get over, but you need the right support, the right help, no one can beat an eating disorder in an “Unhealthy Environment” I cant say more at this stage.
Now Im not in that place anymore and I have AMAZING support, Let me update you where I am.
After 25 plus years eating “Crap” I am now a week down the line from totally cutting myself off from crisps , here are the details.
So I have eaten ZERO Crips in pretty much 7 days now, have I missed them ? NOT at all….I feel fuller on much less calories , eating hot food is a new ball game and one that I am totally loving.
But another , unexpected bonus to this is that I can now go shopping and no longer I am stuck to the crisp isle, frozen with fear from going elsewhere, I wander round, looking at all the new stuff I can try , something just tonight was Garlic Bread, at the recommendation of someone who has been an utter utter rock, I cooked it myself, after cooking stuff for others and you know what, I loved it so much, I had a couple more slices fly into the oven.
I didnt even frequent the crisp isle this evening either.
Another bonus is not being ashamed at the till, of having shopping filled with “Snacks” and thus trying to get out ASAP before the cashier makes an “innocent comment”, sure its not a picture of health, but its a darn sight better than ever before and will, in time, only get better, as a point in question I pick up some bananas , water and other fruit the other day.
Public eating for people with SED is also a huge issue, well, this week, I nailed that too, for me and my sister rocked up to a FULL KFC and enjoyed ourselves
How about “The Re-Building Of Man” it would cover weight gain, weight loss, becoming a cyclist and of course me beating my eating disorder , or do you guys have any further ideas?
It’s been 3 weeks now since I last cycled, I feel like I have lost fitness, but there are bigger fights to win right now than fitness, I do intend to enter a national race in the new year, so will need to get back on it soon, but now I have a handle on my eating, its not something I need to worry about, if I dont get back on it, i’ll miss the race, but it wont cause me any issues with my weight, so its not an issue, this blog is the 39 stone cyclist though and I still fully intend to still be the man I was , only now, a much better version !!!!
STAY HAPPY !