The Broken , Fixed, Former 39 Stone Cyclist Cyclist.

8 12 2013

It’s been over 12 months since since I declared i had been fixed from a debilitating eating disorder (Selective Eating Disorder)

Things have been relatively easy considering I was literally debilitated by it from being a toddler.

There isnt anything I am no longer willing to try , even foods I said i’d NEVER eat , it just takes having the will and the right motivator to be able to do it.

^Graphic Content^

It’s not all been totally plain sailing though , one of the things that caused my SED was choking on food to the point of passing out as a youngster (there were a few other evens in close succession but that was always the major factor in my mind)

It is with difficulty then that I recall something that happened this summer, I was home alone , eating a vindaloo when off of a sudden , my wind pipe became TOTALLY blocked with food.

I hadn’t put too much food in, it turns out that there might be a medial reason behind it, but I’ll come back to you on that later on.

I was choking out, turning blue, I couldn’t shout , there was no point in calling 999, there was no one home but me , my thoughts turned to “shit I might not make it” , I literally took matters into my own hands and attempted to make myself sick….i failed, I was panic struck, so I did the only thing I could think of and stuck my hand down my throat to get the offending piece of meat , I , it worked and my airways rushed with oxygen again I was emotional, I had come SO close to not making it.

Within seconds I recalled what happened to me as a toddler and worried that this incident was going to set me back on the eating disorder road again

but the thing with adversity is, its not what happens to you, its how you deal with it.

So the next day I had exacity the same meal and you know what , it was fine, I was a little worried, but it was fine and to this day, I have since had no problems in trying new things and now have a very healthy diet , properly balanced like never before.


I have admittedly gained a couple of stone in the last 12 months , it’s under control and I am not worried, mainly because it can be fully  explained and I am now losing weight back to where I was 12 months ago, so lets look at the reasons:

1:  Trying a MILLION different types of new foods -Some healthy, some not, it’s a whole new world and it’s taken time to re adjust , speaking of unhealthy foods, I give you !!!!

Gaz VS Food not Man VS Food

Gaz VS Food not Man VS Food

2: I have been diagnosed with Spinal stenosis, slipped disks and arthritis meaning my time on the bike has been very much limited , I have still managed to get a few KOMS though fearless riding though :0) , all other activity has lead to debilitating  pain , I have no intention of giving up staying fit, but things have changed for me now, there also maybe further medical diagnosis headed my way.

3: Starting a new Job , with FARRRRRR too many biscuits and a load of take aways far too close.

So , how do you deal with it , you remember that you and you alone are in charge of your future .

I now spend the time cooking pasta each evening for work the next day to avoid to Take Away Temptation , I drink 2 liters of water (admittedly sometimes with a shot of Vimto) to stave off the biscuit temptations , and where my lifestyle and heath allows , I try and get in a few miles on the bike, albeit slower than before.

bMC amazing shrinking gaz the former 39 stone cyclist

I have taken control of my eating disorder  for good, I have discovered foods from around the world and I have taken back control over my food intake once again , it’s not easy , but as long as you keep an eye on the “NEVER ENDING FINISHING LINE ” you , like me, can achieve ANYTHING , no matter what your physical state.


I have also got a review of something called a “Firefly device” coming up in the next few weeks, anyone want me to run a competition to win one ?

firefly device





PS, My fav photo of 2013

39 stone cyclist




10 responses

8 12 2013

sorry to read about your other medical conditions, you certainly have been put through it gaz.. During the summer this year me and my friend managed to ride 104 miles round trip which is a great achievement for me.(not bad for someone who has atrial fibrillation, a pacemaker and on heart medication etc.) and 51 😉 never give up, Love life and Livestrong Bro!!!

8 12 2013

Thanks brother

It’s not in me to give in tho

I’ll be back, like always, no pitty, no wallowing, just living strong


5 01 2014

Hi gaz , you know I’m about to embark on my own journey of weight loss and self discovery! I just stumbled upon your you tube video with my way music! I’ll tell you something bro I was looking for inspiration and your video choked me up! Ha ha and im a macho type of bloke ha ha! I just had to look up your blog and find out more about your story.

I’m gutted to hear about your issues I mean that I’ve had a lot of illness after someone knocked me off my motorbike I’ve had my wrist fused and lost my job as an adult mental health nurse and before that I was diagnosed with a pituitary tumour.

After my tumour diagnosis I started riding and lost 5 stone I never looked or felt better and my tumour was gone!
After my accident I’ve put on 5 stone! So I’ve decided enough is enough I’m 41 and I need to change ,
I really want to do some type of long ride or sportive or charity ride eventually something big something to motivate other people and to be proud of myself.

So I’ve just bought my dream bike! A custom made koga signature with rohloff hub and gates carbon drive belt £3500 everyone thinks I’ve gone round the bend but im going make my dreams come true on this bike.

I live in north wales I’d love to hear from anyone can give me some advice on how to get involved in something special or a long trip for charity.
Gaz your an inspiration and im going to enjoy reading your story which in turn will motivate me in my quest.

I’d love to ccombine my nursing skills and my love of cycling to help others fight obesity!

Live strong brother!
Dave allen

5 01 2014

Inspirational comments there brother, thank you, I’m under the kosh myself at the moment, but as always, expect a reaction, a reaction that most wouldn’t believe possible :0)


5 01 2014

Hi gaz cheers for your reply mate I’m literally sitting here just about to read your story got me stack of bike mags me new bike in the living room ha ha anything to get motivated,
Anyway brother once I’ve read your story ill be up to speed and routing for you all the way!

Thanks for showing me and others the way the journey will be hard but we will all get there.

Live strong!
Strength and honour!

5 01 2014


Enjoy and keep us all updated on how it goes

Fight hard


21 01 2014

You are an inspiration Gaz! I’m fortunate in that I haven’t had the challenges that you’ve faced, but I’m trying to lose weight to do a Tough Mudder event and stories like yours really do help others out there. I’m posting my progress on a blog (, i figure if my little struggle is public it may help me to keep motivated!

1 05 2014

I understand how irritating Slipped disks can be. It is really painful because it restricts your movement. Keep good care of yourself and keep inspiring the way you do. Good Luck Gaz!

2 05 2014

Thanks Buddy

Sadly a slipped disk is just ONE of my issues :0(
I feel a blog post coming on


2 02 2015

It’s in point of fact a great and useful piece of info. I’m glad that you just shared this useful information with us.

Please stay us up to date like this. Thank you for sharing.

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